I am a pinterest nut. So much to love about it; project research, inspiration, and among many other reasons it is introduction and reminders. The reminders are subtle hints at first. Then it starts to tug at your subconscious and I saw the following picture and knew it was time to challenge myself and the first step is to write about it and make it public so I will be accountable for success or failure.
So if I love changing furniture around once a month, then why is it hard to change what I want about myself?
One, because I want it to be. I want to fight it. Simple as that. So, I just took my first step. Admitting it. It takes more effort to fight it then successfully improving myself (hence; it takes more muscles to frown than smiling). Maybe it's afraid of failing or finding what's on the other side; happiness. It comes down to deciding "Yes, I am doing it." The initiating, and follow through is a consequence of deciding yes and can't proceed without the personal decision from me. No one else can do it. I even have the Lord in my corner and its still hard. Again, it's my decision. I can't fathom that. I have total support and I should embracing it but don't.
My new year starts now. The decision is now. No more hiding and depression is not an option anymore. Just not. This sign I will carry internally with me from now on, because I have so many Laters that became Nevers and that won't happen anymore.
Looking forward to today and yes, I am going to change the furniture today because it is a start.
Suzzi
